Semi Secret Sophie🌙✨

12/16/2025

Music is my everything. And I have the receipts to prove it.

I just got my YouTube Music recap for the year, and guys I logged 58,388 minutes of listening. That’s some fairly heavy rotation, even for me. My top five artists were a beautiful chaos of genres: Sublime at #5, Blue October at #4, Sabrina Carpenter at #3, Falling in Reverse at #2, and taking the crown at #1… KESHA.

And honestly? Each one of those artists hits a different button in my nervous system. Sublime is sunburnt nostalgia, Blue October is catharsis, Sabrina is glittery confidence, Falling in Reverse is pure adrenaline, and Kesha is my feral reset.

There are mornings (like today) when I can’t turn off the tears or quiet the thoughts, so I crank that shit up to 11. Not louder just… more. And fully submerge myself in a different world. Music has been there for me when no human was. From EDM to sappy folk tunes, I listen to it all. (Let’s just pretend modern country isn’t a thing. Yuck!) Sometimes music is entertainment. Other times it’s emotional first aid.

Music has always felt like the quickest way back to myself. It’s not just background noise it’s a mood translator, a memory trigger, a pressure valve. Some days it’s the only thing that can match what’s happening inside me without asking me to explain it. A song can hold grief gently, or turn a bad day into something survivable, or make an ordinary drive feel like a tiny movie moment where I’m the main character again. It’s wild how a few notes can take a feeling that’s been stuck in my chest and give it somewhere to go.

And then there’s the way music keeps time for my life. I can hear certain songs and immediately remember who I was what I was wearing, who I loved, what I was trying to become, what I was trying to escape. It’s comfort and courage and chaos, depending on what I need. Sometimes it even feels like an inside joke with strangers like we’re all quietly surviving the same thing.

Sometimes I put on music to get things done, but honestly? I think I put it on to feel more alive while I’m doing them to make the mundane glitter a little. Headphones on, volume up, doing dishes like I’m on stage. Because sometimes you have to romance your own life back into you. To remind myself that I’m still here, still moving, still capable of joy.

If I’m hard to reach, try a song… I might be living in it.

xx

Soph